feeling tired

i am so tired of everything........i just wanna disappear.i feel like an entertainer.......when i don't even wanna be one.seriously can anyone understand how life is hard on me? can anyone just go easy on me once in a while?its not like i am some kind of king kong....i can't stand,support and do everything.be nice to me.THANKS!!!!!give me a break...

renuion day....

met up with the sisters(shan,ling,ah yuh and ms) and also jason,yunxian,kang wei,joseph and jonathan.
shan and me went to grab a table for the 10 of us first.but it turs out that TIMBRE have only walk ins for THE BAR.what the hell is wrong with them?it was fully booked!!!!so we sat at the bar to wait for some idiots to cancel their reservations.THEN they suddenly shift us to a "bigger" table,saying that they can't give us the full 11 pax table if they don't get to see them(the rest were "on their way")
so no choice it was high chairs all the while.me and shan were definitely not enjoying ourselves waiting for them.we just wished that they will have a change of venue or the shy would start pouring so that they will have to pay for the food and drinks that were on our non-sheltered table.damn off place,who would ever find it good,seriously???
then came the team who said that they will come early with us.min shi's team.she herself said that she will reach at 5.45 at city hall.well she reach timbre around 7.30.and the reason is so damn sucky that it sends me boiling mad.her dota in some lan shop ends at 5.30.FANTASTIC planning! what is this people?meant what you said ok,or else don't even say such things again.if you go to some lan shop you are supposed to know what time it ends so why put it at 5.30 when you know you need to be at city hall at 5.45?and you guys still needed to go back early.what theory is that?
the birthday boy had to come as soon as he can,like how pathetic is that? he is supposed to be the main role,so he could come late,but he rushed his way down.
for the rest of the night,everything went really well.ah yuh kept talking coz he was semi drunk and we took tons of pictures,some were nice but some were just REAL UGLY.all of which is with joseph,ah yuh and shan.will upload when i get them.
the total bill was 240 plus if i didn't get it wrong.ha..and bday boy paid a hundred,coz joseph said its the elder's tradition or something.each of us had to pay 15 dollars only.like real cheap!we didn't get to hear the band coz they came at 10 and we left at 10 for supposingly a movie( ms's gang went home)but the cinemas were pretty much booked till late so we moved on to minds cafe coz kang wei was hungry,we tried waiting for this stupid couple's car to come out,but they just ignore our presence and watched newspaper in the car.we kept staring at them hoping that it works,but they didn't give a damn,they even seemed to enjoy the bloody attention.
my sms came in to go home,so no choice,though unwilling to leave i still had to.so i told them to drop me at some mrt station so that i can go home.but they were nice and said that they will have their supper in woodlands and dropped ah yuh in bugis.while the rest of us went back woodlands.

i had a quarrel with him,and i am really disappointed plus many other emotions which i do not want to and do not know how to explain.i just feel tired.i don't understand,and i try to,but you didn't give me the chance.i thought that i had said to you that communication was important in the relationship,that i needed it terribly,that it was crucial.i hated to be hanging in mid air,to not know if i am gonna dropped down or dragged up.the tension is there,the worry is there.why would you want to get me all worried and scared?why?is trying to solve a problem that hard for you?what do you want from me?

madness

i am gonna wait till my ulcerS and sore throat heal,and i will start singing and recording it down,plus put it on youtube.LOL.
i know its insane,fater all i am not that good in it at all,and my voice isn't that interesting.
BUT
who cares???!!!
i am just gonna have fun and feel shiok when i read good comments,and spam the bad ones.LOL
and i will have shan shan in my production.the show begins!

no presents?

how can i not have presents on my birthday???!!! that's ridiculous! i will probably murder my buddies for being so cruel to me.lol
sisters made for me a hilarious AND some quite ugly part video,featuring alot of US..hahaha.and they were singing.like WOW~!
bastards like jeremey law stay at home to care for his girlfriend,saying she was sick and play fish wrangler while i was playing outside.shit him!
and zhu zhu!
he spent a fortune on me.sha gua,he did last min shopping because i manmark him and he had no chance to buy in my presence,he nearly went insane..can't let you guys see the video,coz i acn't upload it,its too PERSONAL,coz they change the song into "my song".specially changed lyrics,which i don't wanna share.
shall upload what zhu zhu bought for me.=)

sims3!!!!!!!!!!!!

i solemnly swear i will try my ultimate best to buy sims 3 when its out!!! i LOVE it! it sounds really cool!

zhu zhu's nightmare

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!
sorry i gotta blog this.its extremely hilarious.i know i am bad that i do this,but i cant help it.
my zhu zhu just wake up from a huge nightmare.
he dreamt that he saw me having threesome ( a guy with two girls)
he can't remember who the guy and the girl was,but he remembered seeing jeremey law,and two other guy friends of his( felix and keith)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
he saw many people but only remember the four of them.he dunno who is the guy.and he wake up crying coz he cannot take it.LOL....sorry that was really funny.
me having a threesome??? come on la,not in a billion zillion years.he damn cute,he scare me too.was playing my com when i heard him cry...lol...funny pig.

suki sushi-- the worst buffet restaurant

YES,they are! like all you people out there,i think of this place as a extremely-worth-the-money place.BUT BUT BUT BUT
after today,my opinions totally change! Zhu and me went today,because the both of us were having sushi cravings and we thought that suki sushi would be a great place. the sashimi was not as fresh as it used to be and the sushi rice had no difference to sakae's(they used to be so much better).i was really disappointed,i didn't feel like eating any of the sushi or sashimi anymore,so i was eating cream puffs and thought of getting some FRUITS.
HERE IS THE THING I GOTTA SPREAD.
have you guys eaten ROTTEN FRUITS??? coz i just had a bite this noon.its sourish and it has a rotting stench that makes you wanna throw those sushi plates at the supervisor's or manager's face who thinks i am telling lies.she gives this shit face and says that she will CHECK for me.so she brings it to the kitchen and changed a better and fresher looking plate over.
BUT BUT BUT
there is no difference,they smell the same,and i thought it was my nose doing dejavu,i plucked up courage and took a bite,NB....my hands are itching to throw those same plates le lo.WTH??!!!whats the point of changing when its ALL THE SAME ROTTEN THING???
NO APOLOGY!
NO BETTER FRUITS!!!
AND NO SERVICE RECOVERY!!!!!
this ends my post.
I HATE SUKI SUSHI! WORST OF A KIND!!

last episode of nonya!

oh god! did you guys see how yuzhu nearly put the damn disgusting roach into her mouth???!!! i was screaming and yelping NNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOO! in the back of mind,i was having images of skinning,slicing,frying,chopping robert zhang alive.
watching him yelp like girl in pain( all of which were my imagination)

and i SO enjoyed the part which tian bao pointed a gun at robert zhang.It was oohhh so SHIOK AH!.i enjoyed every minute of it. AND THEN.......charlie died~~~~~~~~~
wahahahaha! I LOVE THIS EPISODE.one shot to the head,say bye bye!next on the row,the biggest asshole ever, robert zhang~! WAH THAT FEELING! @#$!%$@^!
HAHA! i am getting happier with the ending now le.LOL!
BUT still so sad for yu zhu.she was a total goner...
i am gonna upload my recent pictures and everything when i have a clearer mind,since i am recalling the way they both die tragically....LOL.

posting.like finally!

someone told me to stop rotting, so i decided that i should do something to this space since its free and i can better express myself in wordsssss.(i guess so)
i haven't really been busy,just....slacking,rotting and thinking my time away.
thousands of thoughts and problems have run through my mind these days. just no definite solutions and i really do feel tired to work anything out.
i seem to be running again......which is why i am dreaming all day,hoping that i would be able to pull myself together and knock some sense to my empty brain.I just hoped that i would be able to make a difference or perhaps do something changing so things will get better.which will also lead to me being happier and not worry so much.i think i will get white hairs and wrinkles like damn soon.all my dreams seems to be nightmares,all my thoughts seemed to be useless and bull.I just need to clear my mind and perhaps be more alert to the more important things around me.I think i do know what to do,but don't have the courage to do so.
so sorry to give a disgusting post here,i feel bored reading it myself too,i will put up something about countdown day and Christmas when i get my hands on the pictures and also a good mood to start.
AU REVOIR =)

new target!!!

hahaha!!I am not talking about a guy target,I wanna get to play a new sport.there is this new thing called the suave board!!and it looks damn interesting,don't get me wrong,I am still in love with blading!And forever will be.i thought of buying a new pair of skates, but they were too expensive and I really can't afford it with the current situation I am in.hehehe...so I just need to work harder for it.but I will get my hands on that suave board first!! It's lesser than a hundred so I guess it's really affordable and pretty worth it.it looks like any other skateboard but it works in a very different way,you gotta really twist your waist to get it moving, unlike the usual push you have to give to your skateboard, this is better! Coz I can lose more fats compared to the skateboard(that's the crucial function, considering how much fats I have gained-_-) well for more details you can go check up their website and join in playing!!!!LOL

www.streetwave.sg

my setting up of blogshop

seemed real easy but the fact is ITS NOT! not when i am that fussy.went to the famous place that almost every single blogshop setter went to.found many of their featured items there.well,what xia xue said is right.THEY ARE ALL THE FUCKING SAME THING made with the same rubbish material.totally zapped the life out of me....
BUT
i am still gonna start one.coz i would not be the same as any other shops out there.i will a big difference,to shock you guys and make you say "where the hell did you get your stocks".
i won't say it out just yet.when i am done with it.i will show you guys my success.yes,i am extremely confident of myself.self-confidence is needed in this,if you believe it and am willing to do anything to achieve it,how can you not get it???
doing a business can be as easy breezy if you know what you are gonna do,right?

i'm not fine

have you ever had a fear of something???so great that it makes your legs wobbly,drains the energy out of you and makes you shiver???i have.and you dont understand it.its fine,don't make me sound ridiculous,i am not joking around about the fear,its true and its something that i can't stop.its not like i wanted it.its not like i like it.its something i can't control and defeat.don't talk like its nothing,coz its a huge deal to me.don't get it,fine.don't give me a look that seems to me that i am telling you a ridiculous big joke.

sick idea~!

i have the sudden sick idea to do online business~! anyone supporting me????LOL!!!!!

stunt making

oh...so sad...i have already prepared to go your house! and you don't know~!wahahaha~!bleah!

outing 2~

sentosa outing pictures!