introducing my 'family'

from the left,eeling,me,bei shan and min shi
taken 2 years ago i think.

this photo is ancient...but no choice, min shi that fellow don't really take alot of photos,and seriously she don't change at all.lol
do you see the girl with specs?thats her!she is one of my damn long friends and my 'sister'(4 in 'lu'). she is extremely good in maths and is currently in JC. she is easy going and real funky.=)






---->"i'm here!"




next on the line,is this messy haired girl here.eeling has seriously decided to abandon her friendster and leave these kind of nong nong ago pics there. i don't have her new pictures coz i cant really catch her nowadays, she is MIA-ing.she is in NYP and in her third year and having her attachment. my senior,my zai and one of the sisters of '4 in lu'.








this old freak you see over here is my 'brother'(he's not old at all).we are so called brothers.he is in the same class as my sister,shan and we used to work in the same place. he is a good freak,damn straightforward and very 'on',so don't dare him.









this smug boy you are looking at is definitely not a 'boy'.let me explain, jeremey has went over the age border to be defined as a 'boy'.(he is 25)AND,there's more to it,he is my sester.in other words,he is more gay.lol! he is in SP dance sports but may quit anytime now due to no 'chemistry' between him and his partner.he loves calling me a "horny bitch" coz 'fuck you' seems to be the regular words he hear from me. his nick-->'psychotic bitch'....lol











look sweet eh?hahaha...if you know her well,you will understand what is a devil.lol...bei shan is one of the sisters of "4 in 'lu'" and is my closest friend.she is in NP 2nd year.loves to bullshit alot like i do,and has a close relationship with cameras. i guess taking photos of herself would be her best skill.we have been mistaken as real blooded sisters.people say we look alike,but seriously,which part????!!! i just don't agree at all.













alritey, this sleepy guy here is my mummy.he looks real kind but in actual fact,he has a hobby of disturbing my weight.he loves giving me thousands of nicks.from 'thick thick' to 'fats',nasty stuff to say to a slim 18year old gal. he is 18 soon and is in SP,but currently having his attachment. and lastly he loves emo songs.hahaha....

one night and a message

one bad night plus a fantastic truth blown into my face.
tough night sleeping....please rain to make me feel better.
i have more then one news that breaks me up...iwntya......iutrlya,mtalb.bn,tfmmwk.stteoi,ty&gb.
thanks not something you can understand but thats my purpose.

ordinary days with weird ppl appearing

today is just some ordinary day like always.went to teach my little couzzie and was on my way to the bubble tea shop with lao yao when this bunch of weird people appear.seems like they were very interested in me as i was 'yu jie's sister'.so bo liao...they stare at me like i was some endangered species.i am never going to pass there again...

natasha's 'soulmate'

well, i fell in love with this song.the lyrics are lovely and the music is good plus her voice is powerful~!the impact is really big.






Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
is already in my life?
right in front of me
or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
how do I find the perfect fit
there's enough for everyone
but I'm still waiting in line

[Soulmate lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

new job and the bad news or maybe a good one?

really had nth better to do in the train so i played around with my camera.i took the photo of the fire extinguisher,changed its contrast and brightness abit and also added the negative effect.quite pretty eh?
i took this at KFC. well i think that they have really wasted paper and other resources printing this out.don't you think so? so dumb.what the hell is this paper for anyway.So if i buy a 2pc meal i still pay the same price what.i give you one dollar more and you minus one dollar off the bill.lame la...


I am so tired today…….I woke up at 7 and started doing my pp. Not much of a progress as I was almost sleeping through it. After which, I went for a job interview with Trudy, Anderson and Jeremy. We went to brewerkz and they only asked us to fill in forms. Obviously, they wont hire us, so I told jeremey to go to the other place to test our luck. On the way there I saw this poster. Whoa~! High paid waitresses! But you got to be a great drinker and must be playing all those stupid games and talk to oldies. So the hourly pay is longer attractive anymore.

As we were walking through those alleys, I realize that a lot of places are hiring, just that they didn’t give the newspapers income to get employees. Anyway we have gotten a job now. Its this place called moomba which serves Australian wine and cuisine. The whole place did look really nice and it has two floors. The sad thing is that they do not do Sundays and public holidays, which means no more double pay for me to look forward to.AW~! That’s sad!

Supposingly, I should be in the bugis library but I got dragged to SP by jeremey law. He got his dance classes and wanted people to see him dance. (Don’t really get his idea anyway)

Wasn’t interested to watch him dance so I got him to bring me to the library so that I can borrow some books and fulfill my main purpose there. When I finally figured out how his library works, I was already on the very edge of falling asleep….thank goodness the library in RP doesn’t work that way. If not I would have swear through my sessions in the library, it was so damn complicated. I must say that the boys in SP are desperate, actually they are VERY desperate~! I didn’t think that my skirt was that short and or my tee was that low too. But I don’t understand why they just keep on staring. I was like “Harlow??? haven’t you seen any living girl in your lifetime?” when I got to the library, things worsen, one fellow came to me for my number. I was like “hell no!” and requested to jeremey to leave early coz I’m tired physically and mentally. He still has his session going on so I sat in his dance studio and watched them dance. It felt pretty relaxing to watch them dance and laugh. As usual, I felt that jeremey looked stiff and the steps just ain’t pretty enough. That’s what I felt.

my little brother was retained.he sounded really happy and calm about it. i on the other hand was rather angry with him.but he has his points.he knew that he did not do well or in actual fact study at all,so its like giving him another chance and also a better chance to get into the N(a).hai....i don't want to care le la......i am so so so so so tired of this.

slowpokes,boring day

i am so damn bored today. didn't get to sleep well,thus dark circles are already developing in great speed.stressed man....
got Trudy to accompany me to library at first but after that got a change of plans and went to accompany shan to buy her skinny jeans with dan,Jeremey,Anderson and Trudy lo.spent so much time over a pair of 'jeans'.
after which Trudy and me made our trip to the library to find our books and also to settle Jeremey's book.i returned jeremey's book to the wrong library and had to get it back.silly me...
well i did not managed to get back the books i wanted.seems like they were in dunno what collection.books of great value and that certain book was not available for me,so sad. but i did borrowed some books that teach Japanese,it was pretty fun reading them so i got them home.
ah~~~~~~~~ i need to make a trip to the library in bugis already.seems like most of the books are there.sian sia.....

asian young fashion designers competition

well, i got shan to accompany me to vivo city just to watch this competition,because i would really like to know how young they are and what they are capable of. the end results,were absolutely shocking. they did unexpectedly well~!oh gosh! i am so stunned by their different themes and work.and oh well,i really don't understand what the judges are looking out for and how they actually give marks or downgrade them but what i mind most was the prizes man! so damn attractive~!

Asian Young Fashion Designers Contest (AYFDC)
THEME: CHANGING PATTERNS
1STPrize – S$8000 cash + trophy + Internship programme with Calvin Klein (New York)*
2ndPrize – S$4000 cash + trophy
3rdPrize – S$2000 cash + trophy
Each finalist will receive economy return air ticket from the country they represent to
Singapore and hotel accommodation (2 nights) during their stay.

sugei~! and who the hell would have thought that the one to took away the grand prize was our local ex-superstar contestant;chia wei choong? the one who went to army with the cute looking derrick?well i didn't realize he is him till shan told me that.woah~! he sure is talented,don't you think so?same surname with me too.500 years ago,we are a family.hahaha~!
although i have gotten lots of negative comments and replies regarding me getting another course after completing this one, i still feel that it is worth a risk and try. i will still go for that course after the current.i still have the hots for it.so what if i feel discouraged half way through that course? at least i gained new skills,knowledge and i did not regret as i managed to get a taste of what its like and i might need the diploma in the near future,you will never know.its just three years,i feel that there are a lot of reasons supporting me to use that time to support my dreams.what matters is that i want it and liked it.i don't really care about what others think. i just need my friend's support and i will be more than happy if they are willing to help me out or even get to wear the treasures that i managed to create.=)

sentosa!and the news that dampens the mood

hi! my name is jeremey law kian he and i am a french chef in river island!LOL!!!!!
shan and me!

us again and got my squeezed fats.LOL!

Today,shan, me and jeremey went to sentosa to 'tan'.but the actual fact was that we were there to display our racist comments. we reach harbourfront by three in the afternoon and ate 'oyster egg',before making our way to siloso. by the time, we apply our tanning lotionS and whatever shits, the sun is already setting down,so we stepped into the water which was freezing,and swam for a while.
then, the drama starts. i don't understand why,but there is like this enormous groupS of Bangladesh walking up and down. we already felt damn bored just because they were there.imagine the horror we felt when they took off their smelly clothes and practically dived(jump)into the water.OMG~! with their underwears and singlets!!!!! i was like "what the fuck??!!"swimming in singlets and underwear? i can't take it.....while shan and jeremey were laughing like mad.madness,ultimate madness.then one of them did the flip stunt and had like half of his black ass to the poor people behind him.....ewwww....bet they didn't get to eat or sleep well after that.
after all the waiting in the crowded toilets and Bangladesh filled bus ride,we went to have dinner at a Japanese restaurant in vivo city.the food was quite delicious and EX man! anyway shan's the tao kay.she paid it~! YEAH! 90 dollars~! oh yeah! LOL!!!

now the sick news,ker wei called me asking whatever happened yesterday and why trudy,jeremey and me were not included in the schedules. i was pretty shocked when i heard jeremey's name as he is not involved and sam should never ever have a problem with him.he works well and does not complain at all.I got really angry as if this is really what sam wants to do,i think he is stupidly unreasonable and darn stupid~! kent says that now they do not have enough people to work.BRAVO! thats what a manager does huh?minus all the people involved with me? shit you man!shame on you! i am so disappointed,i had always thought that he knows how to think.oh boy, i am so wrong and naive to think that way.think kent is leaving too,because he asked if i had any jobs in hand.HA! great! see how they handle the situation.
go ahead Sam! listen more to the old fart there and the fucking hypocrites! see what you get after that.i hope you don't regret what you did because we definitely will not help you out even when you don't have anyone to open the doors of the shop for you.make your life more miserable then.I don't care.

shitty colleagues and a loss of a job

I am so so so so freaked out, my favorite boss sacked me! What the hell!-_-! Don’t really understand why but Trudy got sacked together with me, and we got no ideas why. Well, two customers complained saying that the service was bad and that they did not want to pay the service charge. It was understandable as their food took like an hour and their plates took quite long to be cleared. They want to complain but they did not even ask for our service in the first place. If your food takes a long time to come, isn’t it common sense for you to ask the waiter or whoever servicing you to check your orders??? If you want to get your plates cleared, shouldn’t you ask? They don’t even do that, they just sit there with no expressions and no requests! What the hell! The worst thing was that that I did not take any of the table’s orders, not even drinks lo! Ask me whatever happened to the service, I also won’t know de ma! Shouldn’t he be asking the asshole who took their orders where his or her brain is? Not all of us take the orders, how the hell are we supposed to know what the customer is having and I do not think that I had the free time to care about them since there are other troublesome tables as well. Why doesn’t he sack all of us? Just because I shook my head when he asked why, then he wants to sack me. The rest act blur, he keeps. Forget it man, I don’t care if he thinks that o am giving attitude, I don’t even bother to explain. It’s not like it’s my fault that those people sending orders send to the wrong places, like Harlow? I am a waitress! Waitress! Not a manager, why must I be responsible of everything?! I got so fed up sia. I just shut up and did finish everything I was supposed to do, smiled all the way and leave. I hope those fucking hypocrites who love acting blur get a taste of karma soon! Fuckers man….

And I don’t really understand why he sacked Trudy. It’s not like Trudy did anything wrong for the entire day. She was there early and not only did her part of her job; she also helped the runners to do work too. I really don’t understand why he sacked her. For my case, I am fine with it; after all I gave him neither confession nor explanation. If he assumes that it is my fault then forget it, I don’t want to work with someone who doesn’t know me at all. Help him so much is meaningless, he don’t appreciate it. he only believes whatever shit he claims to see. Those bloody bastards who work their butts off when he is around. The stupid pretenders.

like this song

this song has a great rhythm.

haha......i came out with a strange new name,Valtina Zuwena.nice right?lol!!!! so now,jamie is abandoned!lol......interested in getting weird names?ask me la! i know a lot right now.more than happy to find for you.

sickening day

i was so damn bored today......got matty and 'dunno whats her name' to play with me and watch videos till like 2 in the afternoon,after which matty needed to go off to his frreennch lessons,and his friend went along with him,so left with the lonely and damn bored me to wonder around.i seriously do not understand why i don't have the will to go school,although it doesn't suck and the people i get contact with are pretty fine,i just don't wanna go.
i tried to convince myself that my GPA is dropping in high speed,but seriously it didn't bother me that much.my brain is working in another direction......damn.....i need help.....if only i find real good reasons to go school,if not,i really got no motivation sia......5 classes,100 people to get along with,wtf........just looking at the 100 scares me enough.....i am not interested in getting to know more people,those friends are just like hi bye friends,nothing dazzling about it .hai...but whatever, i will get morning calls everyday from now on,so don't think i will be able to skip anymore school.ar......my self-extended holidays gone.......sad man.
and finally i did something for my PP,i went to the library and i really think i should go there early the next time.i definitely require more than just a tiny seat and i need the power cables!!!!!i need some long hours finding and reading those books.looks like those authors don't really conserve too,every book i needed was like 2 to 3 inches thick.....terrible and i needed more than one....thats really terrible........-_-'''
and oh yea,i saw marcus on the train.(trudy's brother).he kept laughing and yeah i know what the hell he is laughing about,cant believe he still remembers the 'hugging wall' thing.its not like i wanted it.....-_-'''.....i really hope i can erase his memory......
thinking about the coming library trips,kind of scares me........

fever sucks

having a fever is shitty.....its been donkey years since my temperature rose to 38.4 degrees!bitch....must be the little drizzle in city hall.....bloody jeremey law.its all because of your bloody"xia yu xia yu!".drag me into trouble sia.... no money already!!!!!! I WANT TO BUY SHOES!!! GIMME MONEY!!!

and here are some pics i took and played around with.lol.so fun
one was the passengers feet and my bag
and the other comes from my rooms painting.lol.cant recognize it rite?

my sarawak trip (for abby)

alritey,we will be sleep walking to the airport on the 14th,reason being me wanting to be a bloody idiot. i booked the tickets which flies off at 8 in the morning,so i gotta be there by six in the morning and the place is just so damn bloody far!(senai airport){somewhere in JB}which means no sleep for me and the rest.the damage is done,i have already booked it.
since you are there,you might as well join me and bring me along to whatever places you and buddies planned out because i seriously think that my trip will be dull without ya.AND i booked the merdeka palace room.the place is damn nice,so you might as well book a room next to mine!LOL! i planned out most of my itinery! bako national park,damai beach,and i got a personal chaffeur!apparently that i-dont-know-what-name guy is a good friend of my colleage,an uncle who speaks chinese.SO,he would know where to bring us to sight seeing and savour fabulous food,so its your loss if you dont follow me!faster pang sae your friends and join me la!LOL!

i will be staying there for 5 days but your dates abit clashed with mine,i also not sure i am going on the sight seeing and blah blah blah so you better planned out yours asap so that i can arrange it to suit yours.and i haven't tell my friends about you yet(wonder if they will kill me).all my things are planned out and booked!follow me go ba,better than you and your bbs wondering in the streets of vietnam.sounds quite dangerous for a blur ass like you to be in vietnam,first time,with only 2 friends.d-a-n-g-e-r-o-u-s.faster convince your friends la,kao.want shopping go hong kong better lo,what you wanna buy in vietnam???dont really think there would be stuffs that you ppl like.you don't like fakey brands what,might as well go enjoy the blue waters and hairy monkeys.faster decide den tell me.

my first post here is my little coussie.her name is hui xin.hope ya love her,coz i do.she is so damn cute!