i am in love with this!

i saw someone holding on to this bag before and i have been trying to look at it's brands. i couldn't see much because the guy was walking in lightning speed.now i found it~! its from coach! i have been spending so much time thinking and going to websites to find this bag! gosh, i love 'with' magazine! they were showing coach's bags and i just went to their website to have a look and bingo! i found it!yeah!
now i will have to save up to get this! it is EXPENSIVE!

boring~!

i finally managed to finish the posters and guess what? i did it the wrong way...it was like doomsday for me...great! i just hope that they were be kind enough to let me pass. after all, i did waste a lot of time on the posters! finding those cute pictures kind be quite a task! they were pretty nice to nice and did ask me some questions,it was done in a short time too, wonder of they didn't know what to ask.lol!
could not grab any food when i was doing my presentation so i rushed to Central and ate a 6-inch steak sandwich, didn't think it occupy an inch in my stomach at all. i was so hungry throughout work. there were many tables laid out so i thought that i would be having a tough night.but hey, it was tough for the rest of the guys but for me,it was simply boredom. i didn't get much tables. think i would have just served 8 tables for 4 hours? well, i only billed one. bored me to death!
since i had nothing to do, i just chit chat with Danny and a bit with AJ. AJ was pretty busy most of the times, and it was definitely not his day. he had some trouble with ridzuan(i don't know what it is)and also spilled beer onto two customers clothes and bag. damn jia lat!thank goodness, they didn't request for laundry money or whatever. Danny slacked and chitty chatty with me. he said he was single and finally feels lonely, thus he wants to hold an audition for his girlfriend and asks me to help him to find for him. so girls or ladies out there, if you are independent and single, please step forward. he is a joker, he likes tapping on a person's shoulder and act like he didn't do it,and likes poking me by the sides,coz of my reaction,he finds it fun and entertaining. he told this to Ri xian and he joins in the fun too.T-T...
danny:" i think lucien likes you, he has a tendency to disturb you and he keeps coming here. so what do you think of him?"
me:" huh?oh hahaha...-_-'''"
danny:"i'm the matchmaker here lei. rex and krystn are together ALL BECAUSE OF ME lo"
me:" so you are the modern match maker la,good for you lo"
danny:" i never bluff you, i really thinks he likes you."
me:" ri xian also likes disturbing me, if thats the case, then he like me too la?there are still a lot of people who LOVES to disturb me lo.duh..."
danny:" ya la. i believe that they like you lo!"
me".......-o-......"
danny:" if you don't want him then you can consider me lo, i also buai pai"
me:" hur-hur-hur{sarcastic}"
after which another fella will tell me someone likes me. and the cycle will go on and on and on. i will always be "oh really?" or "orhz...hur hur hur".if not, how the hell am i supposed to respond? well, ri xian knows me pretty well, he says that " i know la, you are not ready for relationship rite?" yesh! damn right! he drank dumex milk!lol! i am not ready for anymore relationships at the moment and whats more i only know them for a while. i prefer to have books and design as a companion. sounds real nerd, but thats how i feel now. i want to have more time for myself to prepare for my dream. i think its worth it! yah?

yea, i know.its ugly

guess that day was my best day this month.I had FUN!lol!well, i was really crazy,singing out LOUD all the time,but they(min and shan) join in too,so it was triple the fun. we sang almost all the songs we used to sing when we were together.it was good,it brings back all those pretty funny memories.makes you start to miss the easy life you used to have,kind of sad actually.there is noob thing going on between us. ah yuh is the noob of the noobs,kang is the chief of the noobs.lol! the rest aren perfectly talented and high IQ people!
gotta love the lorry ride,it was 'exciting',hahaha...i mean it. on the way to bugis, we pass through ang mo kio and we started feeling the drizzle.doomsday! we thought we would be drenched,but thank goodness,it stopped as abruptly as it started.lol! cheers to the lucky stars with us!
met up with kai yesterday and we did chat a lot in mac.guess who i met?marcus,kai xin, li hui,hong xiang,ridzuan and his gf jasmine. so many of them!gosh! i only say my hellos to hong xiang and marcus,i like them more.lol!we were supposed to do my project but the work we had at the end of the day was a brainstorming chain web and a drawing of buildings(cute ones)lol!
call me noob! i didn't know that i can print the work out in A1 sizes at my school bookshop.kao! waste my money buying drawing blocks!!!!!!!ARGH!
i still don't know what i want for presents.......books on fashion design illustrations?thats the only thing i can think of,the rest is too expensive....-_-'''

the good,bad and the ugly.lol!

fucked up~!

here i am trying to get some sleep,while some mother fuckers gamble and drink under my block! fuck you!!!!!!!!!gambling under a block?drink till you get drunk and vomit under my block?!!!like what the fuck la??!!you don't know what the hell is a pub?these assholes have no homes to turn to! and one OF the assholes happens to be sin yi's husband.HA~! what the hell is wrong with them! drinking and playing cards till midnight?!like what the fuck?!even if you wanna die,its is still your motherfucking problem!don't make your problem my problem,ASSHOLES!

sending off ling

its no easy task lo!!!!!!!we took an hour plus talking on the phone about all the things in the world and took 15 mins to settle what time to meet up.....what organizing skills everyone seems to have...and poor me? my phone is the links everyone together...T-T..I'm so tired..i have only four pathetic hours of sleep and i gotta wake up 4 hours later!!!!HELL!!!!! i present to you panda hybrid,yi qian~!
still gotta rush my project! thanks mama! thanks for your 'coming soon' help.

hahahahahahahahaha!

sorry but i was really bored so currently,thats the best title i could come up with.as usual i slept till the sun burn my buttocks off and went to collect my laptop. love their customer service,they actually change lots of stuffs for me and you know what? they even clean my laptop!hahaha!nice huh?
i am in my workplace leeching off the company's network and blogging in a sleeping mode.gosh! i feel tired! my bloody bill was like 200 plus,so 'poof',there goes my salary.T-T.(dear customers,please give me more tips)
gotta pray hard that i get some rich blokes to settle within my section.i still gotta treat my sister and 'mum'.oh lord~please rain your money on me!hahaha.......my salary was pretty good but except that i gotta pay for pretty much things,so almost three quarter of it gets sucked off.so sad! starting work soon already,guess i will go grab a chocolate or biscuit. and mum! dun worry about me, i have got enough to pull through,but i hate it when i spent a huge part of it on necessities,its frustrating~!

free rides!!nice people! losing my grip

didn't have time and the energy to blog yesterday,so i am back today!hahaha...
i gotta say, i really enjoy working in brewerkz.all colleagues are nice and really interesting.talking to them is entertaining.love their little stories and funny pasts.had went to dinner to ri xian(the name says 'she' but its a 'he')and Terence last last night?yah, should be that night. we went after work and were supposed to be in a rush.in the end, they started rattling about each other's past and all those funny funny stuffs about their friends. i was just laughing along and commenting,but it was nice. the things that they say were interesting.in the end, i missed my last train and terence got bike,so he sent me home lo(the big road near my home).think his bike might be something expensive ba,its brand was 'phantom'.it looks cute la,reminds me of my grandma's sewing machine.(haha)but i am scared of riding in motorbikes.the wind was really strong,i cant move my head much,most of the times my movement was done by the force of the wind.still really appreciated that he gave me a ride,if not i would have to spent three dollars on the night rider and reach home at a later time. when i was walking my way back from the road,ri xian called to check if i am home.that was nice of him and the poor fella waited for the slow night rider by himself.
didn't get much sleep and wake up early just to find out that i was on the wrong timing. i am supposed to reach by eleven but i reached at twelve.lol!!!! thank goodness everyone was really kind and forgave me without any lectures or scoldings,phew!!!really blur sia......!!!!what happened to me!!!!!!!!!
i busied all my way through work and i did gain something,something everyone would like.money man!!!!its money.lol....got lots of tips from customers.i calculated and plus the one i used on my meal and find out that it was like 60 plus.COOL! now, i love being a server.hahaha...
thought my sesters also end the same time as me but in the end HE WENT HOME EARLIER!!!!then i got nobody to accompany home and makan liaoz.so sad sia!later in the night lucien was transferred over to the section i am in.he sure likes banging into me and act blur. i just 'siam' when he got near,and he will laugh.we end at the same time and he offered to send me to the mrt where i can take my ride home.so sad,he don't live near me or a location where the roads are well linked, if not i would have another ride home,but this time,its by car,where i can sleep without little jerks.hahaha...
i AM really lucky meeting these nice people.hope that i will be the rest of the next ten years.will need a lot of luck to pass through that time period and also most importantly now.i have things that i cannot handle, cant tell much,cannot get much help and.........gesh...i don't know what to say.
guess i had lost most my smilez lately. many would think that i am angry,looking lost and smiling only in front of customers.i am like"oh serious?i thought i was the only person anybody knew of,who knew how to laugh and smile better than anyone else?" well,its like one of my logos or my critical characteristics.and now i am losing it? guess i am losing grip of myself.........

just another day with a different mood...confused maybe?

when i woke up,the sun had already moved above my butt,way off noon time.stupid nose just couldn't stop imitating the tap and gave me a hard time.
i phoned the engineer,and she told me that there were pretty much damages in my lap top.amazingly it was really cheap coz it was still within the warranty time, i was like"oh yeah!". there were like too many things that need a change, the fan was spoil,the charging port was gone too and the usb ports have got sensitivity problems.woah! so all the ports have problems?!hahaha....only sixty dollars as service charge,a pretty good deal.
i had to work in alfresco again today,worst of all, i had the same long range of tables,sickening....! was really tired and had only 10 dollar tips...sian...
ri xian accompany the way home even though he live in bukit timah,he took the train towards jurong east and we had a long chat about lots of things. he knew Fiona like 6 years ago,i was like"hell, that was long!" whats more he used to be in RP,but quit when he was still in year 1.clever decision,better than me staying and practically skipping all the sessions.
shan...guess i have got no choice hor?hahaha...will listen to ya and myself, will try to la.

no voice

this sucks.....i have got a damn 'sexy' voice hours ago and now i can act like a mute.and some bloody big asshole still says that this is the long-awaited golden silence from me.#@#$@R*&^$)(!%6
this is boring.........no voice=no work=no school=dead yi qian.
is sleeping at home the only choice?-_-'''

heroes! and blah blah blah

finally got to see the two hour special heroes.nice show!i love it, its gives me those question marks and great beginnings,keeps the audiences wondering. they goodness it's only on mondays,if not i won't work at night at all.hahaha...
got released early from work today,coz of the extreme change in voice and my ears are kinda blocked,everything i heard just seemed muffled. don't worry mum, i definitely got every detail of your long sad and unlucky parts of your life in my big head. you are very very unlucky,no choice,cant help much but i can share your problems and sort of numb you of it for a while. thats what cigarettes do eh? but telling your friends will be a healthier choice.hahaha...didn't expect so much to happen to you within such a short period of time.your life seems more exciting than mine but no thanks i would not like to have it at all.
be patient, be open, don't take any revenges(coz it will only bring harm to you and you know who else),take things easy,that would be my advice for you and something that you should keep in mind at all times.and when you have got time,make your choice,who stands where,the choices that you will have to take.might hurt yourself or someone else,but you gotta consider the other consequences that might come up if it drags on.and timing,-_-'''gotta remind you lots of times,see the situation and see what you should do ba.you can do it! have trust in you!you are after all my mum!lol!!! read finish that book hor.
hmm....thinking of saving money for many things liao.baking oven, imac,new lap top and a longer holiday trip,but you know, my expenditures?it destroys all this DREAMS.so gotta do something,might get some friend to help me keep the money.definitely not you lao yao! hahahaha! coz you are an old fart.(oopps).and you,monster M, you are definitely not in the list. god knows what you will do to me if i don't pass it up to you.hehe...ok,i am getting abit cranky already,gotta go off to my world.
ciao~

adventure in malaysia(old fart's saying)

went to malaysia today with old fart to collect air tickets.we set off by 6.10 and only managed to get back by 12 plus....terrible sia....we took the bus ride to larkin interchange and asked around what are the buses we can take to senai airport. randomly chose a bus and boarded it to somewhere in senai and we were told in malay to board the bus behind us. might need some lessons on malay, communication is a huge problem there. we took buses that can drop people in the highways and even open their doors full fledged when the bus was still moving,and the people there are like huge monkeys.they climbed onto the bus and drops off the bus as and when they like.gosh!!!! terrible place! i have been in Malaysia for many times, but had not taken any rides from their transport at all. seriously, i would say to all those people who wanted to save their money and take those cheap rides to please think thrice. getting into the taxi is expensive, but you can always opt for a more expensive bus ride. go larkin or the other interchange to take the rides.there are better seats and less expensive rides there,don't take those 3 dollars bus rides if you can't take it.

lousy day man!!!!!!!!!

went to shan's house today to get the sleeping bag for my mum coz my family's going to Malaysia for a little vacation(but not me).
the road there was ok but the the way back was like fuck fuck fuck!!!!! firstly, i fell and my legs ended in really weird postures,now it hurts like hell but i don't know what the hell is wrong with my right leg.the pain is really making me frustrated! well,there's more to come, i not only fell but also got chased by this sick pomerian(dumb dog).its not funny at all....the stupid owner was like" run run run....boy come back come back~!" he is asking me to run and asking his dumb dog to go back to him in a tone that was like he just had his chemotherapy.stupid owner!!!!!!!!!!he thinks his dog understands his words.guess the dog only heard 'run run run',which is why it just keep chasing me.i am injured and chased by a dog within 10 minutes duration. oh....how unlucky can i be???!!!!
i have had numerous cases of being chased by dogs within such a short time this year....if this continues, i gotta say that i am gonna hate dogs real soon.they seriously have a problem with me,get me the king of the dogs, i think we need a talk.-_-'''sorry,just being lame.
so damned tired, still have to make a useless trip to senai airport later....ah.......sian ah.and i need to shop for presents for a big bunch of friends.......no money le......even worse sia......

tired.....

working in brewerkz is tiring....they throw me in too many places within two weeks.there are like stages in my workplace,first you have to be a runner before advancing to a server,after which you get to work outside the restaurant, alfresco which is a bloody busy place and then the bar. the final stage is being a greeter and be in the greeter stand, find seats for the customers. and they throw me in greeter stand....kao...but it was pretty easy and really slack sia. one thing i really can't stand is actually the extremely slow work pace there and also the noises that keep coming out of the earphone.
sorry, mummy haven't got your present yet.i still don't know what to buy.hahaha.....

change things,gotta do it the hard way

when things have been changed or situations have been changed, we as the people involved in the act have the make the amendments too. staying the same for our own benefits is actually being real selfish and being in a way too imaginative world. that is what i had learned some time ago.sometimes,it is really hard for you to do what you had in mind,but i would always be reminded of what i had to go through and also the consequences if i stayed this way.i am already having a hard life but i have so many things i gotta face and its torturing....i can only take things step by step,and i can't run away...the roads i have to walk are already set and ready for me to take,but...looking at those thorny parts,you would just want to go to the greeny patches beside the roads. the roads are teaching me to face my problems and stop crying while the greeny patches;when i step on them,i stepped on my myself,it's like stabbing my own heart in both ways but if i take the road, i will be off the place soon. the road i am taking is long and windy. i do not know when it will end.all i know is that its killing me,my heart and soul...its like betraying my thoughts. i have been told i will get well and get it off someday. but nobody had told me when that someday will come......how long more....?

i wanna bake,and mylappy? its dead.

can we bake cakes in microwave ovens???? i doubt so....actually i have no idea.so this is for me to know and for you to find out.lol....
got the sudden interest to bake cakes.imagining those sinful chocolate fudge cakes, blueberry pies,apple crumbles, fruit tarts and chocolate chip cookies!!!!!!!!!!! i want to have a baking oven!!!!!!!1
but now i think its pretty impossible,coz my lappy's 'buang'.think something in it burnt off or something.coz there is this weird smell coming out and the charger;its dead.think i will have to get new lap top already....that sounds bad....i have got pretty much things in there....oh no....luck,please save me!

dumb commercial

i was watching some baby laughters on youtube and i did find a lot of them! it was pretty good,their laughter were extremely contagious,i just keep laughing with them. but there was this one commercial which was so damn dumb i burst out laughing.....and oh boy....my cheeks hurt.gotta sleep now.think i will have a nice dream...lol
and here's the link if you are interested in what made me burst out laughing-->http://youtube.com/watch?v=bGybYd_9KQI

thinking cap is on!

have you ever thought of being famous? well, alot of people dream of the day when everyone knows your full name or even knows your biography by heart.do you?
i do. i dreamt of being an artist who does big and great art pieces when i was in my primary school days and i did wish to be a marine biologist in secondary school duration. i even dreamt of having a legal money printer and be able to use money as tissue without the heart pains and lawyer letters. now, i hope and really wish to be able to get a apparel design course and create some clothes for my friends. i do change my goals,but i just feel that i might just be able to get one of them fulfilled.so what if it sounds impossible? so what if i don't have talent? so what if you think i am stupid? damn you then!
i have my goals and it changes due to the influences i get.i don't give a shit even if its ridiculous. i find that whatever i have hots for, i go for it! i will not care about the consequences or how long it takes. i just want to do whatever i want to. well, if my friends do not agree to it,they don't know me well,or maybe i should just say they are not supportive.if i have my friend who does the same things as i am. i will probably say"go ahead!! you have only one life so play with the time you have and achieve that you want to, if you regret it just turn another way" i do not believe in studying hard and gaining wealth and fame. i believe dong things your heart tells you too,if it changes, then so is what you are doing. i might finished the apparel course i am gonna go for but not open a apparel line or maybe even a shop and start working something else instead. so what?i have earned myself skills which i think would be extremely useful when i have kids(i can do small and exceptionally cute clothes and accessories)sounds good to me. three years? aww...thats not a waste at all. i will gain many other things, you just don't know yet. be optimistic and take as many risks as you like, your life would be colourful, challenging, changing and worth it. with that i will die in peace.
ciao, my bed is calling me. i need to die now and be revived tomorrow

your best daughter on earth~!

seriously,as a friend,i am worried about you.
when shan has a problem, she says it in full blast.anything she is unhappy about, frustrated and disgusted, she talks it out to me.And i appreciate that, coz i know she treats me as a friend and she in another way appreciates it,coz she knows that me, as her friend, will always stand by her,tell her what my opinion is or even lecture her. she is happier that way. I don't see why,you would be better off shutting the world away from you,when you reach a barrier.more brains work better when you face a problem. even if you have got a brain that has problem limiting its functionalities, it does not make you better in problem solving.
what is a problem? it is something hard to deal with. and when i say your problem, it means its something hard FOR YOU to deal with.am i wrong here? i hope not.so when its a problem you can't solve, share,ask or find someone who does the job of solving! and who does the job of solving? FRIENDS!
when its something private, find a good friend who keeps his or her mouth shut.and when its not,any other friend will do. when you are more open to others, believe me,your life is easier. you will find that you are socializing. you will find that friends are better already.you are definitely not using them at all,you are just asking and in need of their help.whats wrong with needing help????
AND PAI SEH~! I AM EXTREMELY KAIPO,CANNOT AR???!!!
so whats the reason?lol!

and you know what? YOU CARE!!!!!! coz if you don't, you won't be so fcukin fed up,you will not ask coz it will not bother you if you don't.you get it or you don't?
and you don't like that la, kill all those fanatic true love scenes of others. you just don't know what love is la. you have not loved anyone, so you don't know. AND, it just so happen that those people you see and heard about,go into a relationship and fantasize about themselves falling into true love.
you may or you may not get it.when you are really willing to die for that person,then you meet your love lo(that is,if you manage to survive la). boys don't sacrifice their time,money and effort,just to get a girl into bed and use them as sperm toilet.you don't believe it,coz you are not them or you don't associate with them. some girls are into love, while the others just watch too much drama and want to be in the mood of love. but what's wrong with it? they are just trying to love. And thats a good thing,so what if everything was just an illusion in the end? they tried, because they believed in it. it just ain't the time for them.it becomes an experience,again,its part and parcel of life.
like that better what! finally you can talk more! and its for your coming generations and thats good! i can't imagine a grandfather thats emo and thinks about what his funeral songs will be all the time!
if you run away from friends and try to solve it yourselves,please tell me,what are friends to you? a similar species of yours that shares your environment? or a family-like-human being that you know, will always be the one to turn to so that you can feel free from troubles, a special healer for your white hair strands, provide you shelter from bad weathers,love you for you are.what are friends to you? someone who makes use of you or someone who needs your help?someone who loves you or finds you interesting? someone who finds you knowledgeable in some ways or pathetically stupid?
i say, stop minding what others think of you.imagine yourself in front of others, are you happy with the way you are? why and what you should you stay the same and change. your opinion towards friends please change. i don't think that you are becoming human,truthfully, i felt you becoming more and more inhuman.


no man walks alone,he is accompanied and happy.
maybe you will feel that i am not understanding you and talking sense, but i gotta ask, which side do you believe in?
the demoralized reality or the goodness of human nature?i will say stand by the side of goodness. as long as you did your best, you will have made an effort in building the relationship to every single friend out there. if you start getting suspicious about your friendship,will you ever get a definite yes that someone is there for you?you will try to find one but get suspicious after some time again.you will never get it and you will feel and be alone.so where's your place on Earth?it will be an isolated island.
maybe thats why you love cities. you don't want to try something thats out of your management. maybe you failed too many times or you don't want to fail. you love to be places that you know you will be safe. safe but not happy.
if i am not talking sense,tell me ar.
from your best daughter on earth~!
love nature,shes your mother~!hahaha....sorry,no link.

toilet tragedy

i love this picture,its not mine,i got it from deviantart. its called 'I'll heal you again'.


i don't remember how i got hurt but there is this pain on my right leg second toe. AND its killing me~!just when i thought it would get better once i get home and when my shoes are removed, i slipped and fell in my toilet.stark naked!the impact was damn big,i fell directly on my butt and my injured toe hit my mum's washing board, and the heavy piece on wood slammed my toes and feet. it was"OOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHH~!",painful. sounds really comical but its is real an i am just very 'lucky' to suffer from an ordeal like this.
gotta sleep now,working full tml......i'm tired....

family ties

i have actually drifted apart from my relatives. must have been doing it some time ago, but i don't remember when i started. its such a weird feeling when suddenly i am back into my real big family. my granny and grandpa were extremely nice to me and it felt....warm? i really did felt the warmth in my heart. i have been skipping th wedding dinners of my relatives, those special occasions like Christmas where all of my relatives would gather and enjoy eating pizza and turkey. i gotta say i really missed those times when i was real happy hopping around and making fun of my granny's over-sentimental singing. i used to ran off whenever she sings but now, i just sit there and listen to her. for a moment, i felt like crying, i remember when mum told me she had osteoporosis, i felt really unsecured and lost. now that i am looking at her at such short distances, i realize that her age is showing already, she is now an old lady,she is no longer the hyper granny that catches worms just to scare me, it kind of scares me that she would leave us some time later and that i had still not treated her as well as she used to take care of me during my primary school holidays.
when i was talking to her i realize where my darn hard attitudes come from. she loves a risk and says that nothing pushes her off her queen seat. she loves a dare and definitely will not lose that easily,just the same as i am.tough granny,tough granddaughter~! my mums tough too, so she's in too except that she is more hardworking than the two of us. we are just lazy bums.lol...

i am so TIRED~!

i am really trying to pry open my eyes... doing my last minute work on my project which i am supposed to hand out in like a 10 more hours later when i have not even finished half or it...there are now 4 thousand words and i gotta type like 6 thousand more words or more, so touch ups and whatever shits...i am gonna reeeelllllllyyyy cranky....!
whats more i have my applied chem test later~!(i found this out 10 mins ago)and i happen to not read anything about the things tested at all...i think i'm dying of exhaust...i hate RP~! give this kind of stupid things for fuck?!! @#$&&%^$&2436556@#%%^&%#@!